I am still at a loss for words to describe my pain and the struggle with the loss of my dear friend. Like most people who loved him, I’m questioning God and I hear Him tell me that it’s not for me to worry, to question, or to even understand, but to just BE STILL in His presence and know Who HE is (Psalm 46:10).
He is my Master, my Creator, and WILL BE with me every step of the way in my grief. I need to trust His plans and not always question them.
God is not at all surprised by my struggle, my grief, my questions, my reasoning. We go through the motions for one purpose and that is so we can rely on Him for strength through difficult times.
It will take time to stop struggling and questioning and the grief will eventually fade into fond memories and I will always miss him, but ‘I can do anything through Christ who gives me strength’ (Philippians 4:13).